Originally Posted by
Dee74 
I didn't say it wasn't robust MM - I said If you fear there's any danger of you relapsing maybe it needs to be more robust.
I'm not doubting your effort or commitment, but I know myself there's always something more you can do tho - even if it's just working out why there's an itch there.
If you can name it, you'll have a pretty good handle on how to deal with it
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Hey Dee, I know what you meant my reply sounded a bit off when i re-read it but it wasn't meant like that. More what I meant is I'm doing every single thing I can think of and can't think of anything else I could do and if I could think of something not sure I'd have the time or the energy.
I know the reason for the itch, looking throug rose tinted glasses at the relationship I would have loved with alcohol and the relationship I still wish I could have with it. The Sun and holiday and the beach are just the embodiment of that contented happy relationship I would have liked. If my itch has got a name it's the "I wish it could be different" itch. That's why in my first post I mentioned that I know I'm romanticizing but don't know how to turn my thoughts around.