Relapsed
Just drank three glasses of wine, even though I committed to complete sobriety. I have not had anything to drink for a week. The whole time I drank the wine all I thought about was how I let myself down. Then I poured the rest of the wine down the toilet. I have spent the last thirty minutes or so thinking of how my alcoholism progressed. I never use to want to get drunk, but now all of sudden I do. I am not drunk now, but I do feel the affects of the alcohol. I think I let stresses throughout my day get to me.
It's funny, I've never felt so guilty about drinking this "little" until now. I won't let this small setback define me. I am still committed to sobriety. I think back about my progression, and all I can see is a train wreck in the future. So, I am doing this for myself and my family. I love my life, and I want to see it get better.
Sorry if I maybe incoherent. I usually don't post. However, I feel the need to talk to somebody who might understand. Thank you.