My life is shite man.
I'm alive, I got a roof over my head and I'm able to eat. But thats it.
I've never had any positive influence in my life. Lot's of negatives though.
The only messages I have ever got from people in my life, is that I don't deserve to be happy.
That I should be doing x,y,z, whatever it may be to conform to somebody else's notions and whatnots.
So I believe that I don't deserve to be happy. However, I don't believe that I'm alive to forfeit my happiness to others.
'For their are brighter sides to life and I should know because I've seen them, but not often'. A line from Morissey and the Smiths.
Maybe I'm just a rebel eh? Perhaps. But I aint taking no **** from abusive people thats for sure. I have had a lifetime of that, its not an option.