You said that you stopped drinking for 87 days which is terrific. Good job. But, you didn't change other things in your life. I think that a big part of recovery is taking responsibility for job, home, errands, family obligations - those kind of things. Of course you don't need to change everything at once, but I wonder if you believed you could choose one thing - maybe, getting to work on time or early every day? Make that change and stick to it and see if you slowly start to feel better about yourself and your recovery.