Originally Posted by
Dee74 
No one here is a failure. We've all given up drinking poison, destroying our lives and making ourselves unhappy. That a positive thing, yeah? D
Yes definitely positive but I feel like sometimes I'm still obsessing over the drink. Like I'll try to live vicariously through others' drinking. And then I'll contemplate setting a new set of rules where I'll consider having one beer once a week that's it. I know having one drink EVER will lead to destructive behavior and after one drink, I'd stop caring about limiting the number of drinks. And so all of that obsessing makes me feel like I'm a dry drunk. Some days I don't think about drinking at all or for more than a few minutes. But the rest of the time I worry. I don't want to be a dry drunk. I genuinely want to recover.