Thank you all, that's very helpful.
I spent 8 months trying to moderate my drinking before I realized on Tuesday I had no choice but to quit altogether, so I'm still very new to the idea of no drinking at all.
I'm afraid that drinking still sneaks into my thinking all the time just by sheer habit.
Last night, I completely embarrassed myself, all alone in my own kitchen, when I was thinking about SR and how helpful it has been for me.
I was thinking about how supportive the group was, and thinking what a shame that you guys were all over the world or we could meet and go out for a drink sometime ... wait, WTF WAS I JUST THINKING?!?!?!?!?!?
It appears I still have a lot to learn.