Saturday night will be a week since the last time I got drunk. That seems crazy because this week feels like a lifetime in some ways. I think that is partly because I have turned a corner in my mind about drinking. That doesn't mean I don't anticipate temptation or that it's going to be hard--on the contrary--it's a b and probably always will be but I do know I've made booze into an absolute total redline for myself mentally like a life threatening allergy. It will kill me if I touch it. That a little dramatic but it is true too. I was killing myself and risking my life and health with my drinking and by wising up to that fact I feel like a whole new life (that includes a lot of actively protecting my sobriety) has started.