Originally Posted by
Nonsensical 
I feel like I'm about to punch my boss in the face. Interesting thing about feelings - they don't have to control our actual behavior.
You would know better than anyone why sober living is better for you than drinking. What do your notes say?
Non, thanks for the advice and the reminder.
On different days since mid-March my log says:
THIS MUST END.
[my name]: JUST STOP.
SOBRIETY DATE IS TODAY.
'All right, so that's four binges since my "sobriety date". Keep getting sober and stay that way, [name].'
I'm crazy, aren't I? "Who was that who left me those messages?"
That's why I'm forcing myself to follow protocol and ask for external reinforcement now before the point where I just drop out of SR and go back to the old routine that apparently I was trying to quit.
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Dee, what's got me thinking about drinking? I don't know. No obvious pretext. Pictures in my head. Maybe just habit, plus having spare money and a weekend.
Everyone: Thanks! I appreciate your replies.