All the bad things that has happened to me was a result of alcohol.
The emotional waves I'm experiencing is caused by alcohol withdrawal. The only way to stop the crazy train is to not drink and continue to get better. A single drink will put me back to square 1. That's probably the biggest for me. I hate this at times and I want it to be over. There's only ONE logical (and proven) solution: don't drink.
I want to feel BETTER. Not the same or how I felt before.