I used to think that getting sober depended on my character. Really though it depends on a number of things. Because your brain is patterned to use alcohol in most situations. Want to cope? Drink. Want to eat? Drink. It's raining? Drink. My gf broke up with me? Drink. It's sunny? Drink. I hate to be another person that tells you that you need to put work into your soberity, but it was something I had to come to grips with too. There is no magic switch that makes you stop. If there was all of us wouldn't be here. I'm not gonna tell you that you need to go to AA meetings everyday. Recovery has no one size fits all solution. You have to find your own path! If you need some more help or words of encouragement you can pm me and we can hash it out! I have much hope for you! I know you can do this.