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Originally Posted by
Needanewme 
I have been 24 hours sober and know I have to give it up permanently.
Congrats on 24 hours! Now keep that mindset.
The idea of giving it up for life, permanently, can feel way to daunting.
I have taken the choice to drink off the table, but only daily. One day, 24 hours. I can stay sober 24 hours. I can't see into the future, I can only live for today.
There are a lot of recovery options, best to find one and start today.
Take it easy, read and get some support here, everything is going to be okay. Take it one day at a time.