when there's a will, there's a way
Well I just hit a new low these past few days. Vanilla extract. My family found out about my drinking habits and cut me off from their alcohol supply I had been dipping into the past two weeks or so. I panicked and started drinking the vanilla extract found in the pantry. It's just pathetic now. Absolutely pathetic. I don't even like drinking anymore. It just makes me so so sick (vanilla extract does NOT sit well with the stomach). But I'm sick with it or without it. I can tell my withdrawals are going to be rough this time around. Planning on accepting whatever help/support my parents offer to me, whether it be detox, rehab, therapy...I need whatever help I can get. I'm out of options. I'm going to die a drunk if I don't get help. Tomorrow marks a new day 1 for me.