Originally Posted by
Zebra1275 Any similar experiences? - Yep.
How to break the cycle? (again) - Stop thinking that you can do this by yourself.
Here is what I finally figured out, after years of denial.
A) I came to the realization that I was a drunk.
B) I realized, that as a drunk, I was trying to give myself advice on how to get and stay sober.
C) I concluded that was pretty stupid and finally went to AA.
Thanks Zebra for your reply. I have done A and B, and I have realized I am pretty stupid, but still have not gone to AA.