HI. AND WELCOME.
No matter what name is put on it I’m afflicted with the same problem.
It took me a long time to get honest with myself about my drinking and then accept the fact that I cannot drink in safety one day at a time in a row.
Alcohol is powerful, cunning, baffling and insidious. Alcoholism is progressive and is never cured, just halted if we discontinue it intake.
I would suggest Gay meetings if there in your area to be in touch with people who understand alcoholics. If none in your area regular meetings are also very good for the same reason.
BE WELL