Shut up!!!
I am diffusing the power of my AV by telling it to SHUT UP!!! It's been trying to get me to drink on and off since 1:30 pm today. I've also had 1 huge craving and 1 that was a little less intense.
I am NOT drinking today and these are my reasons:
1. I will drink and drive and risk getting another DUI
2. I will hurt my kids and husband
3. I will hurt myself and my health
4. I've gained weight since my relapse last year and will gain more
5. I have spent thousands since my relapse on POISON!
6. I feel suicidal when I drink
7. I get tons of anxiety and depression
8. I lie
9. I usually vomit at the end of the night
10. I avoid my responsibilities
11. I can't look in the mirror
12. I sit in a bar alone like a loser
13. I chain smoke when I drink and can't breathe the next day
14. I hate myself when I drink
15. I get paranoid
16. I feel hopeless
17. I have no future when I drink
18. I have waisted too many days already!
19. The list goes on and on....SOUNDS FUN, right? :-( NOT!
Ok, that worked...my Addictive Voice shut up for a minute! I will NOT drink today!!!