Feeling guilty
I was here last fall, and unfortunately let myself slide back into bad old habits. Feeling guilty this morning, I drank last night, and then yelled at my child.
I apologize this morning, and I want to forgive myself, but I also don't. I feel like if I forgive myself, I'm just going to make it that much easier to do the same thing again.
I feel like I'm stuck in the cycle of drinking and then feeling ashamed and then drinking because I feel ashamed.
Day 1 all over again. 😓