Old 05-05-2015, 12:49 AM
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SoulDiva
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Join Date: May 2015
Location: Woodland Hills, CA
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Red face Day 4 and not a drop of Alcohol in spite of a Difficult time

Day 4 and not a drop of Alcohol...

On Friday had my Lap Top and external drive crash due to a huge power surge in our complex...lost a lot of important data during
my busiest season for my business - EXTREMELY STRESSFUL and'CHALLENGING and yet instead of Drinking I went to my first
AA MEETING and was thankful I did as it offered me some hope
and support.

On Saturday had to attend a Party / Fundraiser that was PAID for
a few months ago and I was a GUEST SPEAKER at - and all of my friends, and my Boyfriend were drinking and trying their best to
buy and offer me drinks...and instead of doing what I would usually
do and tell myself it's a special occasion and I can start again tomorrow, I politely declined, determined to continue on my path of sobriety, health and happiness.

On Sunday got into a big fight with my boyfriend first thing in the morning and after saying some very disrespectful and hurtful things
he took off until late that night - leaving me home alone.... and
though I really wanted to have a few drinks to ease the pain - I decided to mediate, go lay by the pool for a few and read from my
Alcoholics Anonymous Book, come back and cook and then relax in the jacuzzi and meditate some more.

Today Monday was another very challenging, super busy and stressful day business wise - and once again though I had the urge
to have a drink or two as I sat here in my home office working the
past 18 hrs straight...I put on some soothing music as I was working, prayed throughout the day and reaffirmed to myself that I needed
to be strong and that "This Too Shall Pass"....and it did.

Tomorrow I am renewing my GYM MEMBERSHIP as I have found when I am focused on a consistent daily workout routine I do not
have that constant desire to drink. Also going to stop by a local
AA Meeting for additional encouragement and support.

It is a process and I am taking it one day at a time...Working each day
to change the thoughts, behaviors and patterns that are not serving my HIGHEST and BEST.

I am thankful for this website and forum as it has helped to provide me with support, hope, inspiration and information throughout the day to keep me on my path.

Always keeping each of you in my thoughts and prayers that you also
find healing, hope, happiness, health and prosperity!
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