Hi Mrryah
I used to say stuff like my brain works against me, I can't trust it etc etc.
That's putting us (you& me) in the passive position - things happen to you.
In fact, we're the ones that make things happen
If you;re feeding your 'bad wolf' it will win. What about feeding your good wolf?
Life will always throw stuff at you...if your only real tool is a bottle...drinkers gonna drink.
you need more tools - and you need to use them...not drinking is going to be much harder than drinking for you right now...
but I really feel you're worth the effort mrrryah
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