Same here I put it on at least 10 times a day at work , I'm never triggered & it's quite potent . Makes the eyes water.
I remember people smuggled listening into rehab . I couldn't get my head around that and still can't.
Addiction is what it is tho & if nothing is available they will take what they can get.
Yet it wasn't abnormal for me to walk 3 miles in thunder & lightning when I'd run out of wine ! Go figure .
I gasp at the danger I constantly put myself in , in my drinking days .