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Old 05-03-2015, 11:08 PM
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MelindaFlowers
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Originally Posted by QuietToday View Post
And the guilt--- that's what I'm most embarrassed by. The next day I wake up and I just can't stand myself. I want to scream and tear the skin off my face; I am repulsed and horrified and so angry--- and yet, somehow, eventually, I do it again anyway.

I hate drinking. I hate my life. And yet no matter hard I've tried I somehow come back to drinking.
Welcome Quiet,

You summed up the life of alcoholic drinking perfectly.

I can relate to so much of your post. These two parts really stuck out to me and you sound ready to stop. I was living the same life. Making great plans in the morning and then drinking that night. Believe me that you can do this and be free from the chains of alcohol. As you know, it is no way to live. There comes a time when drinking actually becomes harder than not drinking. It sounds like you are there. There is a time when we are ready and you really sound like it. Welcome.
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