Thank you purple knight.
well i think i done the worst thing i went on a date thinking i would be okay but stupidly i ordered a glass of wine, i no my full intention was to do that. But i think in going to change my plan now where i just work all week and just come straight home, at first i thought this was going to be easy because i was so happy but its like it hits me out of no where and even i dont see it coming.
basically work all week and id already promised myself to not let alcohol effect my work but id twisted it in my head that i could just drink weekends... I was so wrong. So i think to change my plan instead of using the money i would by alcohol with im going to buy myself something nice instead and just save money...
in a way in glad i did try it to see because it was playing on my mind and now i have i no its a no go area. I just feel ashamed i was doing so well and actually happier being sober i don't understand why i did it
i thought i was stronger then that...