Thanks everyone. It's so nice to be welcomed and have people to talk to about this. I'm sorry if I babble at first but I may need to. My hands go numb when I drink. I can't feel my pinky or ring finger most of the time anymore but I would drink anyway. I do have a problem. I need to not drink and this will help. It's okay to admit I was having a hard time controlling this and need to stop. It's okay to ask for help. Just thank you all