Hi Lady congrats on reaching double digits
My advice would simply be keep reaching out whenever you need to lean on us through the tough times keep interacting on other threads i find it helps massively
The thoughts of drinking is known as your AV you have identified it thats brilliant
So now what do you do well you know drinking leads nowhere and to misery so based on that you could keep telling yourself im not going to drink today i know i can do that....just for today
youl be surprised how much that will help and have you thought about other therapys of any kind ?
And im staying sober today too keep on keepin on Lady