Hi... Grace, here...
I am almost 4 months sober now, and in the past few weeks, I have been having the random thought that I can drink "responsibly" even though I never been "responsible" with my drinking in my life. It usually comes when I am overwhelmed at work, and I start to think I can stop and buy a bottle "to unwind" on my way home.
All it has taken was a trip back in time tonight to my first post on SR to know where this was headed. For the moment, I had forgotten that my alcoholism is a progressive and fatal disease. When I read my own words, I felt again all of the pain and suffering I felt then. It was so clear how awful my life had become and how desperate I was to get sober.
The answer to the question "Why do we drink again?" is always, "Because we think we can."
Thank you for being here.
Grace
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