I was in a lot of fear about the consequences, the pay off was no longer worth it. I felt crazy at first. I had so much free time it was crazy making. I did therapy and Tai chi, and a lot of Hiking and working and took a music class. It was difficult growing out of friendshis and old routines but over time they become habits. I now take really good care of myself and it feels like second nature, when I drink or smoke it's easier to get back on track