Originally Posted by
Para 
Yesterday, after a week of sobriety, I drank again. I feel like a failure and a hypocrite. Here i am giving support to others, yet why can't I follow my own encouraging words to others! I will get up and try again. And I feel as if yesterday strengthened my resolve to get sober again. I will stay sober. And I will be on SR, just won't be posting too much. I just need to stay quiet and read.
I haven't been around since before this happened and I was looking back through your earlier posts about the first symptoms of withdrawl you were facing and then I noticed the sneaky AV helping you to doubt yourself:
I did hear my AV quite a few times during the day, but it wasn't so strong. It was kind of weak. But I do know it can get stronger if I let it.
My stomach is full of knots and butterflies, and I know this feeling so well...it's when my AV says, the knots in your stomach will go away if you just have one drink!
Driving my wagon of hope through beautiful views on my road to myself