Nah, I can't skip it. It's my brother's bachelor party.
The tough thing is that it's also out of town, so I don't have a good exit strategy. Deep down, I know telling him this weekend will make the bachelor party a lot easier. But part of me is scared to tell him because of that whole accountability thing. If I screw up and have told him, it will obviously be worse.
I sort of felt like after last weekend staying completely sober at my friend's birthday party would give me renewed confidence. However, that's really worn off.
This staying sober thing is plain and simply not easy. Today I'm letting it get the best of me and just feel very down on myself. Then just the added anxiety of seeing my brother tonight and not knowing if I'll be able to muster the courage to say something.