Hi aajajen ,
I'm sorry you ended up drinking . It's when life gets difficult that the going with sobriety gets difficult . You haven't lost those 18 days of experience and can still build on it .
There are better ways of handling it than getting drunk … Maybe it'd be good to try and post try and reach out before the drink next time ?
Sobriety is a long and wide road , you might have slipped up but thats no reason not to get back with it .. don't let your relapse last any longer .. get some water and get some sleep .. you can get straight back to it .
Make your next decision the right one ,
Take care , m