If you are crying with your first drink, then that is the real YOU telling you that it's time to stop completely, not just for a little while. Think about it. Get to know that person, honor the real you for a while, not that blasted addictive voice.
BTW, I know exactly that feeling of anxiety that comes with knowing that time is slipping away and the store is closing soon, and there is no wine in the house. I've been there, and I have a feeling it may come back, as I'm only on day 9, but I also know that it's not ME, it's the addiction talking. If it does come back, I have SR, but I also have my journals to read, my entries are a reminder of the real me. Give it a try, you can do this!