Crushedinil ,
So how long has this relationship been going on ?
Sounds like 9 months of madness to me . For a few expressions and laments you seem to be swallowing an awful lot mess from this character.
I don't know your age … but i assume if you're young enough you'd like children and to get married ? Does this seem like a good idea with this guy ?
Seems to me you might be in love with the idea of this person rather than the reality of what they are putting you through .
It's your decision of course but i'd be very wary of investing more into this madness .
Take care of yourself first,
m