Binge drinker here as well. My issue came from the fact that I didn't drink daily. I would binge hard and then quit for a period. So, it was always in the back of my mind "Okay, I can drink and then quit. How bad can it be? I'm not drinking daily"
But then the desire to drink would show up a day earlier, two days earlier, etc. I've realized lately that I was spending time white knuckling it to reach the "acceptable" span of time.
That's not living.
So I stopped.
I wrote a plan.
I work the steps of the plan.
It's been 6 days now. It's not easy every day. The AV still screams. The justification starts. But I have my plan and support now to stop it in its tracks.
You are among friends and the support here is INCREDIBLE.