Wow, Brain. This is an awesome post. I still felt like the marcher ant when I was newer in sobriety. At the 3 to 6 month mark. But I kept plugging away for the promise that even if this was all there is, it was still better sober than drunk with no chance. It got better and there isn't enough time in the day now.
TS, that is a very powerful post and I can see the scene in my head. All it's missing is the smell of stale beer and tobacco. Lonely. Waiting for life to happen to us instead of living it.
Thank you all.