Originally Posted by
elaine45 
I used to go to AA. I hate the part about making amends. I just think some things are better left unsaid, like sleeping around ect... I have done some crazy stuff drunk. Things that I have to hide..
I'm not sure about you, but them " secrets"...the insane actions while drunk I didn't want to remember but couldn't forget, that stuff left unsaid......
Helped keep me drunk.
Today I am free as I have cleared away the wreckage of my past.I have no secrets haunting me any more. I was quite relieved to share it with a closed mouth individual and also learn there was nothing I ever did or said that was unique. All been done and said before.
I am free of it and now my past is a very valuable possession I have.
And if it wasn't for being court ordered a while before I was ready to get sober, I don't know if I would have ended up in AA. Court ordering me planted a seed and when I was ready I knew where to turn.
No need to feel sorry or bad for me being court ordered there. No one forced me to drink and face the consequences.