Originally Posted by CeeFarro

I hate working at the bar. I don't hang out there, I just work and drive home about 30 miles away and drink alone. My husband is gone most of the year for work so I am very isolated. It is so beautiful where I live and I have my dogs out here with me..I know I can't stay sober long term working there but I'm taking it one step at a time right now. Tonight will be hard. I just need to make it through until tomorrow. That is all I want right now, this minute. I am tired of not caring if I live or die on the inside and pretending to be something else on the outside. It is exhausting. Thank you everyone for your comments and support. It helps more than you know..It means everything right now