Spacegoat

I've kinda cottoned on to that fact pretty fast since I sobered up. I didn't actually know that and I'm not sure why

I understand that too and always have done, intellectually at least. It's just man, ugh, difficult to explain kinda


Thanks Della. Again intellectually I agree and I do know this. Retrain myself to be a genuine fake though? I dunno man.

It's like, I've got some seriously sneaky and abusive 'relationships' to apparently contend with. And not just my parents.

They are not even relationships of any meaningful description, any interaction with them is just basically so destructive.

They go on about their lives having a great time- fine, great- but then unload on me and try to manipulate me emotionally.

And I'm aware of all this because I have had a lifetime of it. And what these people don't understand is the degree that I suffer.

There is just no common ground. I'm not even even being dramatic, I really do suffer and hate to admit that. I don't admit that ever.

But its written all over my body even. I don't know where this is all headed, it's not good anyway. Like they leave my feeling ill.

It's not even up for debate. I just will definitely not be emotionally manipulated and controlled in that way again by anyone.

Please correct me if anybody doesn't agree with me on that. Aw gee all I have is problems life is not supposed to be like this

Um yeah man, maybe I will throw out a thread or two later my head is a mess right now. It's been an unpleasant morning and I better hit the cot for a while