This really hit a mark with me. I agree...just the thinking about having a drink is enough to bring back negative feelings. I blew my 28 day sober time last Saturday night, and in hindsight I recognize that the couple days leading up to the party were filled with negatively as I kept thinking about whether I could handle "just a few". I was actually feeling sorry for myself with the "why can't poor old me have a few drinks like everyone else". In hindsight the obvious answer to that is because I NEVER have a few drinks like everyone else. I wish I could but I can't. It would have been so much easier to not be obsessing over the Yes or No about having a drink. It should have always been a BIG no, and left at that. Plus I wouldn't have made a complete fool out of myself at the party. Have a good day all
