Originally Posted by
vendetta 
Honestly I'm scared to death to stop drinking. I'm desperately trying to find a reason to stop.
Fear of sobriety is absudly illogical, but very very real. I had a big dose of it myself.
Part of my brain was betraying me. I found that extremely difficult to deal with. I had always eschewed the advice of others and kept my own counsel. That is, until I found out I have an unreliable counselor living in my own head. It is my addiction, and it lies to me to get what it wants - more alcohol.
If you are addicted to alcohol it is a mistake to believe everything you think.
Best of Luck on Your Journey.
