Originally Posted by
Charlie117926 Sorry or letting you all down. Thanks or listening and let me have it you feel the need.
You only let yourself down, and my guess is you're already beating yourself up plenty. Learn from the experience. The phrase "construction project" alone is enough for me to know. You set yourself up because you hadn't quite cut off the alcoholic attachment. Are you ready now to completely break the bond on your side -- knowing that all those chances and desires to reattach can prey on you at any time?
Oh &, you have been & still are completely worthy of sharing your experience (& strength and hope) with others here and outside the forums. As are we all.