Here's something I just thought about J. Have you ever been to Niagara Falls? (Slowly I turned...).
From the Canadian side looking across horseshoe falls you'll see an island. You access this island from the USA side in NY. Nice park by the way - if you ever go to NF and don't spend time in this park you wasted gas money.
Anyway, the Niagara River is quite the mighty moving body of water. It is a very strong current. Also keep in mind that no-one survives going over the falls. Imagine attempting to swim across the Niagara River from that island to Canada. You are one lucky person if you do it. You are also an incredibly strong and determined individual.
The odds of doing it once are very slim. The odds of doing it a second time are astronomical.
I think that is where Dee was going with leaving the door cracked open.
Do it once and be proud of yourself - never look back.
Thank your lucky stars you made it across. Never get back in that river, ever again!