Thank you friends. I've woken up feeling a bit more optimistic. He's going to make the trip with us, bt I'm doing the driving. I don't mind that.
I just can't let go of this guilt. I know people are right when they say I didn't cause it...but I just can't feel that.
And yes, I have talked to him about all this but he already feels guilty enough and it makes him secretive. He starts hiding his alcohol and empty bottles. He doesn't want to hurt me but he just can't help himself. I can see through all his lies of course, I understand completely.
My sponsor tells me to leave him alone and get out of God's way. He will get there when he's well and truly done. I do get that. During my relapse I was even lying to her about my drinking. It's what we alcoholics do.
And yes Dee...I do lots and lots of praying. I want him to be safe and to find his way back.
I suppose I just have to wait now.