Back again
Back on oct 26th I joined and came on this forum and began reading and posting and helped me through 66 days of sobriety. Then the holidays came and went and I went right back in my old ways which always happens after being sober for a while, thinking I can handle it. Have one you deserve it, ok see you can have one or 2 and be fine...but deep down I'm always feeling I want more if not then, the next time or the next...before I knew it I was planning my nights to get all messed up and fly off the handle. Having one for me as probably most if you is waking the sleeping giant, I just can't do it anymore. So here I am again posting and reading and 5 days sober from coke and booze. I know I'll be good for the next few weeks but always afraid for down the road how I'm feeling. That's all I guess from me, and I hope everyone here is having a good day