Calypso, Welcome!
I can feel the pain in your posts, and I hope by now you see that we are a welcoming, non-judgemental community. You may share your story if you like, or not. Either way, you will find that we do understand how really difficult this is.
I'm glad that you have continued seeking support for yourself and that you found us. Please know that you can PM me anytime - I'm always around.
