I had those same thoughts.
I don't fit in at A.A.
I don't feel welcome at church
My counselor doesn't understand me.
In the end, I started looking around at the bar and realized, 9 times out of 10, I was sitting alone because I didn't fit in there either. Actually, if I was honest with myself, I fit in less at the bar than anywhere else.
I did fit in with the friends I made at AA. I was just reluctant to embrace sobriety so I shunned them.
I did fit in at church but I was reluctant to embrace faith so I shunned them.
I did fit in with my counselor but I was reluctant to embrace healing so I shunned them.
I did embrace drinking and everyone there shunned me.
When you are drinking, it depresses you. That is the nature of alcohol. It also causes what I like to call "soul ache". It leads to such intense feelings of failure, loneliness, fear. Those seep into our life and bind us.
You are accepted here. There is so much love, wisdom, and support here.
Welcome.