Have you tried a recovery programme whether its aa or the secular based recovery programmes smart or rr ?
thats a good list michelle when i got sober i went group therapy i went aa i saw a alcoholic outreach team i started to read books based on recovery
Anna has complied a exellent list of books check it out bud
http://www.soberrecovery.com/forums/...rituality.html
and here is help with a plan for additinal ideas
http://www.soberrecovery.com/forums/...at-we-did.html