Greetings, C. Just wanted to extend a hello to you. I am a 29 year old woman and struggle as you do, so I understand where you are coming from. I chose sobriety after a night of black out drinking that turned me into a monster. I am still cringing at that and some of my past behaviors. The truth is that alcohol has the ability to make us into people we are not. Please do not let your alcohol driven actions define you. I understand that you struggle with distinguishing the real you from your drunk alter ego, but there is a difference. Most of us are here because we have had horrible things happen, mostly by our own hands and initiated by too much drink.
You may tell your story or you may just express your feelings. Regardless, we are here for you.
God Bless.