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Tetra I am in! Everytime I go to see my therapist, I come home almost "high". I feel free! I have decided that life is for living! I have decided to stop apologising for being me, and to start living my life! "Everything that has happened along the wayforget it. Forget about the first love that broke your heart. And forget about the last break too. Forget the time a friend you thought was best pushed a knife in your back. Forget the words and the spite that resound in your head. Forget the trauma that injured your flesh or your bones. Forget the rejection you felt when someone failed to recognise your value. Forget the tears that cleansed your soul. Forget the mistakes that everyone makes. Forget what you gave, without return. Forget the mistrust, the resentment and the jealousy. Forget about lies, betrayal and deceit. Forget about the ones that got awaythey were not meant. Forget the time someone tripped you and caused a fall. Forget the times you gambled but forgot you could lose. Forget about whispers and gossips and storiesit is all an illusion, the truth only lives in one self. Forget about rules and regulationsmake new. Forget about thinkinglet the mind sit still. Forget about timelet your heartbeat decide. Forget about fear, it will paralyseit is useless. Forget about perfection, it is unobtainableimperfection is true beauty. And forget about forgettingallow the release to happen. Naturally. Then try as you can, to remember this
Everything is already a part of you, the lessons have been learned, the memories etched and the effects have sunk in. There is no need to hold onit all already exists, so allow it. Let it just be. Without grasping. Without pressing repeat. It all had a purpose, once, long ago. Even if it was yesterday, or a minute agoit has now passed. Past. So just breathe
and breathe again. Deeply. Right here, right now. You are alive. You survived. In this very moment, this one
here
You can choose. Choose to live. Run. Fly. Wildly. Begin again. And begin to feel alive. Feel. Everything and nothing and all in betweenfeel it all. Flushing through your veinslet it in, let it sit and then let it go. Slowly, but very surely, replace all of the forgotten with all of the new. Add to it, mix to it, blend whoever you were, who you are now with who you are about to become. Alchemyturn it to gold. Turn you. It is easy. Try. All of you. Every part. Stir the storms with the rainbows, the pleasure with the pain. Create. Forget the old. Sprinkle in new. Stardust. Magic. Wanderlust. Mystery. Moonlit skies. Forests. Deserts. Sparkle. Dance. Have faith. Go. Find. Dont look far. It is there. It always was, always has been. Right there, right here. Right now. Be free. And each time you are overwhelmed, or hurt, or angry or in paingo back to the top, read once more, unlearn, forget and begin again". I bought a new book today: "Overcoming Social Anxiety and Shyness" so my plan is to exercise and do some reading this weekend. Spend some time with dad, he told me I "brighten up the house". No one told me that before. Rest a bit - I had to attend a big department meeting yesterday - I never thought I would ever say those words! It was kind of stressful for me. There was an item on the news just now - a 22 year old footballer was playing a football match one evening, three days later he is in a wheelchair for life. I just can't get my head around that. How life can turn in a flash. And I will count myself as very, very lucky. As my best friend said: "what mistakes did you make? Did you murder someone? Rob a bank? Keep it in perspective...."