calypso - I know I for one have done some things I'm really not proud of and some things that I still do not share. There is no pressure hear to bear your soul but if you do want to tell your story I doubt very much you will get any judgement. There is not a person hear who doesn't know what it feels like to do things they are ashamed of. As a community we've drove drunk, got divorced, comitted violence, lost jobs, alienated friends and family etc. I think most who have truely gained sobriety have come to terms with the things they have done and found peace and all they want to do is help the people like you and me and the start of the journey.