Thanks everybody for the support. I have an appointment on May 6th with a doctor, but that feels so far away right now. I have been so anxious today that my chest hurts, and I feel like I am gonna have a nervous breakdown. I have tried to quit so many times I fear this is my last chance. Not just with quitting but with keeping my family. In one night I managed to let everyone down again, and this time I am not sure if they will forgive especially my boyfriend. I feel like I am losing everything.