Trust me I can relate. Not only am I dealing with the grief and depression I just lost my job.
What keeps me sober is playing the tape all the way though. I drink and blow my sobriety, make a bad situation worse, quite possibly die, get more depressed than I am, ruin the trust of my loved ones. Like the energizer bunny the problems from drinking just keep going on and on.
Unfortunately we have to deal with life sober. Is it easy? It sure isn't but the thinking alcohol is the solution is insanity. The good news is the problems we face will get better but things will never get better as long alcohol is in the equation.
I take things a day at a time and so far I'm sober. I control the things I can and turn the rest of the crap over to my higher power