Thank Haennie, that is where the cards fell. Once behavior is analyzed, processed and there is a determination of meaning, that is what really scares me. Narcissistic or not, its coming to terms with where I am at.
Honestly, I've never done a thing for my family drunk or half drunk, I haven't drank in like a week, but that doesn't mean anything, I've gotten good at going 7 to 20 days sober. Then going off again and going through the rounds. Better in the sense I am a world away from daily drinking, but worlds away from real sobriety.